I spend an immense amount of time in my head.
I spend an immense amount of time in the future pondering all possibilities and consequences as a product of decisions I make today as well as circumstances that may arise.
I arrive at ideas of how things will be down the road, grasp their significance and promptly internalize any emotion I will be feeling in that future realm.
While this can be a powerful motivator for making or not making certain decisions, if I am not careful I wind up confusing how I might feel in the future for how I actually feel right now not to mention the fact I forget to take into account how I have felt in the past.
What a mistake to make.
The Balancing Act — My Failure
If I were to make sweeping statements, one of them might be that any extreme or fundamentally unbalanced approach to life is wrong in some way.
By existing, I have entered into an interesting balancing act between my past, present, and future.
In my present, I must learn what is the proper balance to my past and my future.
Some live as though there were no future and some as if no past.
Occasionally, I find myself living as if there is no future.
I catch myself embodying a state of mind solely based on future events which have not even yet happened and, in fact, may never take place.
I plan and figure the future and let it dictate how I feel in the present.
Again, this is a very useful method for making certain decisions. But not as a modus operandi.
Balanced and Wise
Wherever you turn, you will encounter those who waste no time considering the past, those who live wholly for the present, and even those who argue that anyone who is not drawing on 3,000 years of history is doing the existing thing poorly.
I cannot recommend complete adherence to my conclusions and observations on life. Everyone needs to engage with the world in which they see themselves, take in as much information as they can, and make decisions accordingly. Let my opinion be one source of information among many.
It follows then that it may be wise to look at the range of extremes and consider what a balanced approach may be.
To Exist Well or Not to Exist Well, that is the question
My past can strangle my present and preclude certain futures or it can hand me a foundation on which I can both exist contentedly and grow marvelously.
This is my perspective when considering what a balanced approach to living might be in light of this interesting balancing act between my past, present, and future.
To live wholly in the past robs me of the magic of what it means to influence my own future and shape it according to my past and present.
To live wholly in the present robs me of the rich lessons living in my past and therefore of a future that could be if I were to apply the lessons available to me should I take a balanced approach to life. Not only this, living wholly in the present deprives me of the beautiful context of my life (my history) and therefore, fundamentally, miserably represents who I am.
To live wholly in the future robs me of the infinitely (*infinite in the sense that my life is made up of only as many moments as my life is made of. No less and no more and therefore nothing other than the perfect amount) beautiful present that comes from the future and turns into my past only after being my present for a marvelous instant.
To live in full respect and utilization of my past, an undying wonder at my present, and an undaunted and daring expectation of my future is to live well.
Perhaps the most simple (and easily misunderstood) thing I can take a stance on, balance is beneficial in all areas of life.
Balancing the way I exist based on the fact I am every moment adding to my past, passing through my present, and entering into my future seems to me to be the well-est way to exist.
And so I choose to exist well.